Original posted on 12.29.11 by Gwen Houghton
My Emotional Body is exhausted. Now that I think of it so is my Mental Body and my Physical Body. I can’t really tell you one particular thing that happened or why I feel this way but I am certainly grateful to have a break. I am feeling the need to regroup, reorganize, rejuvenate and re-energize. Re-energize is the key. The Energy Body is oftentimes overlooked but is a very important component to our physical existence. There is something about the energy of Christmas and the whole holiday season that is just exhausting even though I go into it with the resolve that I will not stress over it.
I think that part of the reason why this happens is because I am extremely sensitive to the energy around me. I am aware of this energy and I still become lethargic and exhausted if the visits are prolonged. With that being said, most people are being bombarded by this energy and do not know what is going on. They just know that they feel exhausted and somehow feel guilty that they did not do enough.
So what energy is around all of us during the holidays? People put all kinds of importance around the holidays. We see family that we do not see all that often. We do not see these people because we are uncomfortable being around them or they live to far away, but for some reason, we are compelled to bring them into the group for the sake of not excluding them. This is all fine and good except that for whatever reason you are not used to being around that energy. These people are close enough to you so you are connected to them somehow and are open to their energy.
It is important to note how you were feeling before the event and how you feel after everyone is gone and the dust has settled. Are you feeling kind of depressed? Do you have feelings of unworthiness or like you did something wrong? Where are these feelings coming from? Do you feel confused because you do not know where they are coming from? Trust YOUR instincts because they are not always YOUR feelings.
People unknowingly superimpose their feelings onto other people. Have you ever noticed someone walk into the room and your mood changes? That is because you took on their energy. This is what happens, knowingly or unknowingly and it happens all the time! Add to this fact that we all have these expectations of what Christmas has to be for us and it is no wonder why we all feel so weird after the holidays. It’s like we put Christmas and other holidays on this proverbial pedestal. When we do this we are creating a paradigm for ourselves. Most of the time these expectations that we have laid out are not realistic and we are certain to be disappointed.
So what am I going to do about this? Interestingly enough, I feel better just writing about it. I believe that just becoming aware of how I feel, acknowledging the energy, and deciding what is true for myself helps to dissipate Maya. The Mental Body holds all of our past information. When a new experience comes up the mind tries to relate it to the past experience. This creates the patterns and thus creates the expectations and the drama within our lives. If we can be aware of what is going on and look at it from a detached point of view, than we can minimize the control that other people’s energy has over us. At the same time we are updating or reprogramming ourselves and not relying on old outdated information from our operating system (AKA the mind). It is time for us to take control of our mind and this is part of how it is done, one step at a time.